That’s kind of a personal and hard question isn’t it? I want to share with you a little about who I was. How intimate and personal should one get? We don’t even share with our significant other some things about ourself. Doesn’t the divorce rate and brokenness of relationships show that we are not a very honest people? We all have dark secrets.
But Jesus said in Matthew 10:26 “There is nothing concealed that will not be disclosed, or hidden that will not be made known.”
What I’m going to share with you isn’t to solicit pity. In the past I indulged in enough of my own self-pity with consequences that still linger today. My mother died when I was 1-1/2. My siblings and I were taken from my father when I was 4 and put into a children’s home. At the age of 11 my brother and I were separated from my sisters. I was sexually molested at a young age. (12? I didn’t think to write down the date!) I was very confused and angry in my youth. I started drinking at the age of 17. I became addicted to pornography at a young age. I was arrested seven times for being drunk and disorderly, once for drunk driving. Once I had my stomach pumped because of possible alcohol poisoning. My brother committed suicide when he was 26. I was diagnosed as being manic-depressed in my early 30s, later diagnosed as being bi-polar.
Physically and mentally I’m still reaping some of the consequences of my past. I was diagnosed as having chronic fatigue four years ago and had to step out of the workplace three years ago. Many research their family tree. The Bible says that God “will punish the sins of the fathers down to the third and fourth generation of those who hate Him.”
Do you blame God for the family you were born into? Or if you were born into a loving family, do you take it for granted? Ether way, take the time to read Ezekiel Chapter 18 to see “who you really are.” I don’t know if Nicodemus grew up in a loving family or a strict religious family, but Jesus said to him, “You must be born again.” Jesus doesn’t promise us a problem-free life as Christians. He himself was crucified and tradition says all his disciples were martyred for their faith.
I described to you who I was before I received Christ as my Lord and Savior. Are you a good person? No, not really. Maybe according to this world’s standards but according to God’s standard “our righteous acts are like filthy rags.”-Isaiah 64:6. In Ezekiel’s day, they offered up sacrifices because they understood its significance which ultimately pointed to and was fulfilled in Christ. But sadly to many, these sacrifices were a ritual with no personal application. Who are you really?