So I have a question. Is it just me or does anyone else feel like there is never enough time in the day to get even a few things scratched off your to-do list? I’m not going to lie — because why would I — I feel like I barely accomplish a few tasks in a week. Often times I feel a little discouraged by the things I can’t get done instead of focusing on the things I did.
Growing up, I thought by the time I got to be an adult I’d have all the time in the world to explore new destinations, learn new things and run a smooth and efficient household. As a kid, I thought adults had all the time in the world. Turns out while I was wishing I could be an adult instead of a kid who had to go to school and do homework, I should have just been enjoying the free time I had then. Because I think even with my extra activities and homework, I had more time off as a student than I do now. What a reality check it has been since I graduated from college almost three years ago this December.
As a child, I saw my parents conquering everything they attempted. My mom got her MBA from St. Ambrose University. It took her a few years because she was working full time and only taking night or weekend courses. But still, here was a woman who worked full time and was able to accomplish something so tremendous and still make time for my dad, my brother and myself.
My dad stayed home and raised us and took care of the house and yard. But while he was doing all that he was running a successful carpentry business out of the house. Sometimes, when we were really young and not yet in school, my brother and I would have to go with him to the job site. My parents were able to balance it all, or at least it seemed that way to my younger eyes.
They did this all while still taking care of my brother and me. I have no idea how they found the time for anything else, but they seemed to have a little extra time during the week for other things. Who knows, maybe they felt just as hard pressed for time as I currently do.
Maybe I just haven’t found my balance yet. Does it take this long to find it? Maybe I’m still trying to find the right combination of expectations versus truth and fact. I honestly couldn’t tell you if I’ll ever find that balance, but I hope to. Someday, if I’m lucky.
I just feel like the white rabbit from “Alice in Wonderland,” not necessarily the “I’m late! I’m late for a very important date!” — instead of an important date, I’m just out of time.
So here I am, up late finishing this column because once again, I’ve run out of time. After the dishes were done, the laundry folded and put away and I showered, I’m finally able to get this accomplished. Sleep will come eventually, even if I did want to go to bed early. Maybe I’ll be able to crawl into bed early tonight. Here’s hoping.
It’s OK, I think. Because while I’m still young-ish, I have the time to learn how to get this whole adulthood thing figured out. Learn how to balance everything in life. Honestly, you know what, if I never do that’s all right too because then that means I can still be a kid.
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